Monday, May 30, 2011


and unable to make a decision..Or should I say, decision is made and I'm not certain if the decision taken is the correct one or not. Last week , including the weekend that passed by was highly streeful. This is when I have two job offers at hand, submitted my resignation, have no work in the office except for transition, and actually supposed to be a time where I should just be relaxed, cool and looking forward for the next assignment.

Took help from a well-wisher about an hour ago, expressed my concerns and am feeling better now.

Is it normal for people to feel anxious about any impending change, especially, while changing jobs? I've been in this organisation for 6+ years now and I've gotten inside a comfort zone here, because of which I'm ambivalent about changing jobs. While one part of me wants a change (that's the reason why I even prepared my resume , floated it around, attended interviews and landed at one) to re-discover myself, to test myself if I'm smart, strong at heart, a chance to take things at stride , an opportunity to stay calm and relaxed, an avenue to mingle and make new friends/accquaintances, probably a change in schedules, an opportunity in learning something new and different, , to just go out and see whats there outside, to try my luck at a different organisation, with a hope that things will get better on personal front with this change, a faith that good things are now beginning to happen..  At the same time, another side of me is scared , is terrified as to how the new environment will be, as to how I'll adapt to the new team, how the people and mamager will be like, about the work and inclusivity in the team, if I'll get to work from home , if this is the right time to change at all, if I should be waiting for some more time till I decide on my personal front and then make a move, ...

I've submitted my resignation, and now serving the notice period. I'll stick to the decision taken and see how life takes it course and I trusting in Lord .

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

First of many

Yes, this is my first post from our brand new laptop, which we purchased as a gift to ourselves for our wedding anniversary this 2nd of May. We have been pondering to buy one for quite some time now, and the better half had left the decision to me to choose one. Me being me, took nearly six months to decide whether to buy one or not (since I was already suing the office laptop to work as personal one too) and then to decide on which brand/model to buy..Finally, we brought home a new laptop and I'm beginning to fall in love with its cool features, refreshingly bright color and the newness of it..Hope to pen many more happy posts from this laptop.

May is the better half's birthday month and while pondering over the gift for his birthday, I decided to surprise him by inviting his friend , whose birthday also falls on the same date over for lunch/dinner. Checked with the friend for their convenience, checked with MIL (since we were returning from my place after attending functions that morning of the birthday) for cooking arrangements, bought return gifts for the friend's kids and things were going as per plan, when I suddenly revealed the plan to hubby a few hours before lunch time. We had a good time , the kids were awesome, especially the little one was over enthused and was full of energy.She mingled so easily with all of us, strangers to her..Her image was running over my head all through the next day too. Even now, as I type, I marvel at how happy and social that 4 year old is. Touch wood. I'm hoping this is a new beginning to our social life.

Two functions (Sumangali Prarthanai and Swamy Samaradhanai)  which were supposed to have happened before my wedding took place this month. Thank Goodness for making it happen. There were so many hurdles all these years for these functions to take place and the last one month saw changing and re-changing of dates for these functions multiple times. And added to this, my periods also misbehaved causing much anxiety. Prayers to multiple Gods and Goddesses were offered and Thank you lord for listening to the prayers. The days preceding to the function were brimming with anxiety and fear. At one point of time, I felt so damn saturated that I felt drained to even worry. Anyways, the functions went on smooth. It was also my dad's belief that once these religious rituals are done , of course with involvement and with good intentions and  good thought,  good things will begin to unfold . Now that God/ancestors have Himself/themselves accepted our offering, all of us strongly believe that our prayers will be answered.

The day preceeding to my husband's birthday , we were at my parents place to attend the above mentioned functions and our extended family also participated. It was my sister's plan to celebrate her BIL's bday and she organsied cate cutting session. Since there were two other kids around whose b'day also falls in April/May, we decided to make it a combined celebration (by having their names also on the cake). She is awesome in arranging such stuff and she did a wonderful job indeed. We bought gifts for all three of them, cut the cake and had a good time overall. Appu, as I always tell you, you are the best est thing that has happened in my life da. God Bless you darling.

I've come out of my cocoon and landed myself two job offers, I've come out of a shell to make some effort to invite people home , to give surprise party (however small), I'm trying hard to remain postive and look at the glass as being half full ,to be optimistic and to have faith and hope. Need to wait and watch how things unfold.

Monday, May 16, 2011

been long..

yep, if not lot, something has been happening at my end..some small change..I've resigned from the current record for posterity : 11 May 11 is the date when I'd sent my resignation..Have got two offers ..will select one among the two shortly, though a preliminary decision has already been made..

I have spent 6 years, 3 months in this organisation, have seen crest and trough in career, have seen the lowest point of personal life while employed here , have made countable good friends whom I can trust and look to, have made umpteen accquaintances , have had wonderful managers who were very supportive (most of the time) through thick and thin, have learnt, have also done some time pass, have been intoruduced to blog sites, have had the freedom to browse all round the clock, have learnt a fairly complex technology which has added weight to my resume, have committed mistakes, have been cornered, have lost and regained trust, have observed many admirable qualities among colleagues, will try to imbibe certain good attributes in the fothcoming endeavour, ..all in all, the graph has been preety decent..However, at this point in life, I want a change, a positive change at that..I'm craving for good things to happen in my life..I hope this change is the beginning of all good things to come..